I came out to feed the ducks today, but not a duck to be found! I don’t know where they’ve all gone. Maybe they’re having an afternoon siesta.
I was very pleased that I gave myself permission to come out and feed the ducks, when normally I would push through, even if I wasn’t feeling like I had the energy or motivation to do something.
I mean, sometimes you have to push through. But the sun is finally shining after so much rain. And I thought, yeah, let’s go feed the ducks.
It’s important to allow yourself that self nurturing commitment on a daily basis. Then as I was leaving, I picked one of the little angel cards I have by the door and it said, courage.
And I thought, ‘oh, courage to go feed the ducks? Yeah, those ducks could be really vicious.’ Ha ha, more like courage to stick to your convictions of self maintenance, of self nurturing.
Then I thought about how this pushing through default mechanism in me also comes from birth, because I was held in, so I was pushing through.
And I thought about my own sons who were both born underwater, but Forrest just came out and up really easily. And everything has come easily to him in his life, he’s just kind of breezed through life, whereas Roam had to work harder to achieve the same success.
Roam and I had much more of an interaction in the actual birth process, and he’s had to work hard for most of the things that he’s received in life.
I mean, both of them have done really well, but just looking at how that birth process alone can set up your default mechanism is really interesting.
So the birth challenge can be either for you as the mother, whatever you experienced that could have been distressing whilst giving birth, or you as the baby who was distressed at birth to two years old in some way, shape or form.
It’s really fascinating when you look back at your life and all of the repeating patterns that are quietly lurking there.
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